Have you ever had days when you just really do not know what direction you should go?
What about days when you feel like you are all over the place and with no real plan?
Or how about days when you are motivated in your head but not physically?
I have been like that many times. Too many to admit.
As a flight attendant, we (I) do not make much money for the demands of what the job calls for. There is so many factors to what we do, that I am considering a blog series on the job and my personal experiences. Everyone in the industry has a different experience but we all are on the same page in some odd sort of sense. I know one flight attendant who is an attorney, one is a real estate agent, one flips houses with her spouse, another works a bartending job and there is another one who has an events business that specializes in weddings and baby showers. So you see, there are many of us who make the most of the job we love so much.
I was on an overnight in Charlotte, NC when I decided to put in my application to work part-time at our local Cracker Barrel in the small town that I now live in. It was a big step for me. I am a licensed stylist of almost thirty years but I just didn’t want to do that in the small town I live. I wanted to try something I haven’t done since I was in my late teens and early twenties – being a server. I needed the extra income and I needed something to do that was not airline or hair related. I just wanted a change.
It only took a week and I was hired on at the local Cracker Barrel as a server. It is the first real thing that I have been excited about in a long time since moving here. A very long time.
So how does this work – you know, flying and working part-time. The myth is that people think we are gone more than what we really are. Many flight crew have a second gig that they do for extra money. Ask any of us and they will tell you it is not for the money. I am very fortunate that the management at Cracker Barrel are working with my schedule. I can average anywhere from eleven days off a month up to 20 days a month and sometimes we can bid (if operations area allowing it) for a full month off with no penalty.
I really needed to take this job. I needed not only the extra income but I needed the social interaction. I want to be able to provide for my children, although young adults but still – they need mama to help them at times. I want to be able to pay my bills without having to choose which one comes first. I hate that. I despise it. My pay, even at working what I work with the airline is not enough to cover them. It is just not enough. So, I had to suck up that pride and do what needed to be done. No shame in that at all. If you are sick, don’t you get medicine and let the doctor take care of you? Same thing with income and bills. If you are not making enough, you pick up your feet, you get busy and you find something that can supplement. There is not one ounce of shame in that. There is shame in losing what you have when you have the capabilities to stop it from happening and you don’t. That is called being lazy. I am not lazy. I am determined.
Day one comes for my orientation. I felt so sick that morning. It was nerves. A little anxiety I believe. I make my way over there and as I walked into the front door, I felt a little more at ease. I kept thinking to myself, ‘Am I doing the right thing? Should I really be working a second job? Am I going to have the mentality for this?’. My thoughts were quickly interrupted (thankfully) by one of the managers who was going to be training me for the orientation. He was kind and had a very welcoming demeanor about himself.
Five hours later, I had learned a heck of a lot about the operations of Cracker Barrel. I will say this about the company though – if you are looking for a job, apply with them! I was really amazed at how much work they throw into the many departments of their operations. Mind blown actually. I feel that I am going to enjoy my time there. At least I hope that I do.
With anything you do in life, make sure you do it with a purpose. I may not always know exactly what my purpose is with the things that I do. Going out there, putting yourself out there and trying is what is important. You will not know unless you try. You either learn how to do something or how not to do something. Learn from it. Take something away from it and hey, as always, if it isn’t working for you – then by all means let it go.
Too often we get in that complacent place that we either get so stagnant with our ideas and goals in our heads, that they become lost in what we really want to do. I have written many times how my head is like a hurricane of a kaleidoscope of emotions that I just can’t describe. What can I say, I am a Gemini. I have a creative personality, I dream big, I am very passionate about the things I am passionate about and I could go on and on about the things that keep me going.
I feel that if you have been reading my blogs, that if you have been keeping up with them from time to time, that you will see who I am and what I am about. I never portray my life as something it is not. What you see with me is what you get. Rather it be I am all over the place, feeling unmotivated, dealing with depression – whatever it is, I am not afraid to talk about it.
Wherever you are this evening and whatever you are doing, I pray that God blesses you richly with love, comfort and peace. Life can be a little crazy at times. It can be complicated and feel like we are standing in a stagnant place. I know that is not what God wants from us or for us but there are times when we must stand still in order to hear His voice for guidance and direction. Yeah, I get it – that is hard to do. I hear you. I feel that way too. I think if he had one of those gong things from that old TV show called The Gong Show, that He would totally need to hit that sucker while I am standing right by it…hahaha! Don’t we all need to be ‘gonged’ once in a while?
Thanks for reading this evening 🙂
Peace, Love & Hugs